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PriscillaLWY
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Little Things That made me smile
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Monday, May 11, 2009
   This might be a long post..pls bear with me ah ma passed away on 7may2009,thursday. & i miss her.. it happens when i was taking my usual nap. meimei suddenly called me up and said that ah ma is gone. i didn't believe her at first. and i "huh?" 3 times before getting the fact. ah ma is gone forever. papa was at buangkok green with her mum. so we must wait for papa before rushing to ah ma's house. but we were too late. we can't see ah ma for the last time. held ah ma's arms..it's still warm and she seems like she was sleeping. i still hope that she would wake up like what movies show. but to no avail.. heard from uncles and aunties that ah ma didn't suffer much before she died. cried countless times. i didn't expect ah ma to pass away so early. she was normal last sunday and still smiles at me when i smile at her.. she was still standing outside the doorway when we kissed her and wave goodbye.. and that's goodbye forever. waited for the doctor to arrive to pronounce ah ma's death. and he's late for 2hrs... did a lot of preparations. ah ma was dressed beautifully and lying in the coffin. i've never seen ah ma bressed up so nicely before and this is the first and last time. she looks jut like an empress of the past..still lying there, not moving. ... i helped to fold/burn the incense papers..that the last thing i can do for ah ma.. while burning the incense. i kept thinking of how ah ma dotes on me and my other cousins and will sometimes drop to tears. .. .. i miss ah ma's pat on my back. i miss ah ma calling me to eat the food she made/brought. i miss ah ma's smile. i miss ah ma's black and curly hair. i miss ah ma's bright and luminous eyes. It always shines and seems 慈祥. i miss ah ma's everything... .. but well, i'm happy that ah ma passed away peacefully and that her dreams were fufilled after her death.. i heard from mommy that 3rd uncle saw ah ma's spirit on friday morning. Walking around. from the tradition, people do not know that they're dead after 7 days.. mommy say that she saw a bee flyig to and fro at the cemetry today and said that she believe it's ah ma..i believed it too.. .. this is the end of today's post ah ma will be in our memories forever. goodbye ah ma. now and forever... |
